To introduce August, the month of Bold here at skirt!, I had to think hard about what I would write. You see, I’m not a traditionally bold person. I’m not an adrenaline junkie, I haven’t taken a major risk in my life, and thankfully, I’ve never had to make a bold stance against a wrong where I didn’t have support of my friends and family. I have made tough decisions and struggled, sure, but bold doesn’t quite describe me. In fact, when I brought up this month’s topic to my friends and family, they had the same pained looks on their faces as I did, trying to conjure up an idea of something bold I had done. Something that didn’t exist.
But now that I write this, I think that we had been thinking of bold in a totally one-dimensional way. Bold, just like beauty, is relative — it’s in the eye of the beholder. For someone who is used to mountain climbing, would climbing Mount McKinley be inconceivably bold? For me, as someone who would naturally much rather stay in her comfort zone than branch out, “bold” is something to aspire to, to work towards. Bold is the goal. Am I the only one?
This year was the first year of “normal” for me. I graduated from the University of South Carolina in 2014 with a major in business. I searched for a job for months, and now I work for a great agency in a position that I love. Last year, I moved into my first apartment. I bought a car. All big steps, with many personal accomplishments along the way… But bold? Not in my opinion. Just enough change and instability to keep me from making big plans or steps toward “bold.”
This year I know my place, I know my strengths, my weaknesses, and where I can grow. Finally, this year, I was ready to make a change. I was ready to make a bold movement in my life, in a direction I’d never gone before. A move that I’d contemplated for years, but I hadn’t been ready for, mature enough for, or even been close to prepared for. After years of preparing, little by little, inch by inch, this past spring I did it. And now, I’m better for it. I am more compassionate, less selfish, and more full in heart, mind, and soul.
This year I got a dog. His name is Mo.