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Teababy

Educator & Aspiring Writer

I am a girly girl; I’m simply complex and passionate about the people and things that I love. I’m an educator, an aunt, and among many other things—a lover of life. I came from California to go to school in Atlanta 2 weeks after my 18th birthday and never looked back. California is my first...

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Living Life out Loud!

I try to imagine how differently I would live my life if I only had a short time to live.

Would I continue to nurse relationships with people who are emotionally draining or would I avoid them altogether? Would going back to school still be a priority or would I be more fulfilled by pursuing my life’s passion for travelling the world ‘No Reservations’ style? How often do we get to let go-- I mean REALLY let go-- and do the things that we truly desire without feeling guilty, selfish, irresponsible, or just plain unsupported?

I am a reasonably responsible adult. Being the eldest of 4 sisters and 1 brother, I have long been plagued with the idea that if no one else would do right by my parents’ wishes (really my mom’s), then I had to. I hate to disappoint her or anyone else for that matter. I go to work and then to the gym; I come home and cook, eat, clean, bathe, sleep— in that order nearly EVERYday. I know some of you may be saying to yourself 'that doesn’t sound too shabby for a single person without a husband or children to chase after'. But, it just seems to me that my life used to be WAY more action-packed. I just don’t know what happened between college graduation and this past year.

I often fantasize about transforming myself into an 'escape artist' by running away on sabbatical for at least 6 months of the year. I’d be like Jedi—I’d just vanish and reappear at random. Seriously though, at one point I considered taking a break from teaching to work for a major airline. I know there are many reasons to loathe the travel industry right now but, at the time, it seemed like the easiest escape route I could think of. I know the money is comparable to the peanuts they serve-- but I saw it as more of a trade-off. I would get to explore the world for a year or two in exchange for my services. After all, teaching is one of those professions I can always go back to. And let’s be real, money clearly isn’t the reason I stuck with teaching all these years. I only have one life to live...so why not make it an adventure, right?

"Wrong!” according to two of the people I love most. I got all kinds of discouragement. My mother totally believes I should be happy to just teach the kiddies until I’m old and gray. The guy I’ve been dating the past several years was equally critical and stated: “You want to quit your job educating and shaping the lives of children to serve sodas on an airplane?” Talk about ‘ouch’! I guess I was bothered not only because of whom the reactions came from, but rather, because I am the first person that people come to when they need encouragement. Go figure.

The critics may disapprove, but I know one thing is for sure: it is definitely time for a change. This blog is just one step towards world domination (even if it’s just in my own little world ;). Anyone who knows me knows that I am a very private person. So for me, blogging is more than writing; it’s exposing my inner thoughts and feelings for everyone to see. It’s a little scary, but at the same time, liberating. Welcome to my life and my stories-- told my way. There’s no telling what’s going to come out, so consider yourselves warned! I’m up for the challenge to start living life out loud again! Like Diana Ross said, ‘I’m comin’ out’—and I don’t mean the closet! Stay tuned…

P.S. No life altering drama was required to set this storm in motion. My life then and now is based on a true story. All I can say to those who know me is--- definitely don’t take any of it personal ;). *smooches*